I'm going to have to continue being a bit cryptic about my big work project but here's what I CAN say...we are trying to sign a pretty major A-list celebrity to represent our brand next year. So the last week I was furiously putting together a presentation while also juggling a weekend 10K event in San Diego and a trade show in Las Vegas. Wednesday our team flew to New York City where I spent about 24 hours alternating between being really exciting about meeting with her and feeling totally sick about it. We went to breakfast on Thursday and went through our presentation for the millionth time and when it got to my turn, I blanked. I had been rehearsing on the plane, in the shower, while I was falling asleep, in my head while I was pretending to listen to everyone else and there I sat with a completely empty brain. I had visions of being in the meeting, in front of the celeb, her agents, our agents, my boss, the CEO and the CMO and not having a single thing to say.
So we get to the agency and the rush to set up actually sort of calmed me down. And then she arrived, and she was nice and friendly and set everyone at ease. Which then allowed us to COMPLETELY ROCK THE MEETING. I don't want to sound too cocky but we were pretty awesome. And when she and I ran into each other in the bathroom afterwards she said it was one of the best presentations she'd ever heard.
I almost don't care what happens from here. This was one of those experiences where not only did I want to do my best, but I wanted my best to be really, really good. I wanted to prove to myself and all the company big wigs that I belong here. That I'm a valuable employee. If my career is going to be the main thing in my life then I need it to be something I feel really confident about. I haven't been so sure lately so this was a nice reminder that maybe I AM doing at least one thing right.