Last night someone I care very deeply about managed to hurt me fairly deeply and I think pretty permanently. I don't really want to go into details about it but the gist is, I spent a long time giving someone the benefit of the doubt and it turns out that Oprah quote is really true, "when someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time."
So this isn't going to be a post about getting my heart broken. This is a post about how grateful I am that my friend Jimmy talked to me until I could fall asleep last night, and that my friend Kristin listened to a very long and sad post mortem without once telling me "I told you so" and that my mom and my sister and my sister-in-law all bit their tongues as well. That I had a whole bunch of friends that made me laugh today and reminded me of all the ways I am loved.
My dear friend Damian asked me if I was listening to sad girl music today and when I said that I was, he reminded me that it's much better to listen to things that will make you smile. He reminded me of this one that felt oh so applicable to my 2012.
I'm going to make it through this year if it kills me.
And be grateful for all the good people that will help me do it.